Better and better

Sorry, the previous post may have been too bleak. I think in general I actually establishing a much better baseline where "happy" and "organised" and "productive" are the norm, and "I know I'm good, I don't understand why things keep going wrong" isn't.

That's a point I kept hoping I'd get to, and only now am I cautiously wondering if maybe I actually have!

But that progress involves a lot of examining problems and cleaning them out not letting them fester, but that brings them to light in a way they didn't when they just mouldered quietly.

Things which have been a lot better:

* Eating breakfast every day, eating soup and toast for lunch every day instead of sandwich which leaves me feeling a lot bouncier
* Kept a multipack of crisps in my desk drawer for when I DO want to eat them with a sandwich, and didn't snack on them at any other times
* Getting in to work not-at-the-last-minute, semi-regularly
* Much more ready to talk to people and less scared
* Still SOMETIMES scared, but much more able to recognise "oh, I'm in a bad mood it will pass" rather than "agh, I'm so useless, must dwell on how useless I am"
* Not feeling I must reply to every LJ comment and read every link before doing something else
* Reasonable expectation of turning up to work and getting things done, not freezing :)

Things I still want to improve on:

* Not trying to do too much in the evening, and getting to sleep in good time
* Make regular time for other hobbies, specifically home programming projects
* Make measurably steady progress on little tasks without letting them mount up