jack: (Default)
[personal profile] jack
I only broke it down like this in retrospect, but I noticed that I always, always had difficulty getting on with things and getting anything done, but there were several different ways.

1. When I had an urgent deadline, I would freeze up, until it got so close it was clear I wouldn't be able to do it well and would have to give it a half-arsed job, and then I'd hurry it through at the last minute. The same applied even to fairly small things like packing: even if I just needed to throw some clothes into a suitcase, if I had a deadline, I'd not do it.
2. When I had something I wasn't sure how to do. That's fairly self-explanatory.
3. When I had a promising project and clear time to work on it, I'd be paralysed by choice.
4. When something was fairly easy and all I needed to do was do it.

It seemed silly I procrastinated in basically *all* situations. But I realised, that's why there was a problem. If there was one situation I was really good at, I could maybe arrange to work there as much of the time as possible. I only noticed, because the problem was hard to fix :(

And it turned out, "just don't do that, get on with it", SHOULD have helped, but DIDN'T. But over time, I got better at each of the different aspects. And as I did, I got projects completed quicker, and was able to see an overview of the project, rather than a cloudy bit in the middle with "here be dragons" I didn't want to think about, and then, by the power of iteration, I could practice until I got better, not only strive to fix six different fatal flaws at once.

And I slowly learned what worked for what problem. If I had a deadline, accepting what would happen if I missed it, reduced my stress. And layout out what I intended to do before then, hour-by-hour, and what was essential and I'd do first, and what I could drop, let me get *something* done.

And training myself that if I didn't know what to do, I could *usually* figure it out, and even if I set aside a day for "just think about this, it's ok if I don't solve it completely", gave me the freedom so fix that in a day, rather than weeks.

And when I had an opportunity to power through some stuff I was in a fairly good position for, setting intermediate aggressive but flexible goals helped a lot in actually getting it done at a reasonable pace, and not saying "work flat out", but "if I'm ahead of this, I have some flexibility" helped a lot.
If you don't have an account you can create one now.
HTML doesn't work in the subject.
More info about formatting

If you are unable to use this captcha for any reason, please contact us by email at support@dreamwidth.org