Noticeably social and exuberant
Mar. 15th, 2011 12:35 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
jackIt's almost embarrassing how much noticeably more social and exuberant I am when I don't have something hanging over me. And embarrassing that I almost always DO, not because there's something bad, but because I let something slide until it becomes a horribly overdue source of stress. Whenever I feel like this, I always say "I wonder if I can stay like this", but though it often improves incrementally, it never lasts well.
It feels strange that this Jack is the Jack I think of as me, but since exasperated-and-stressed-and-tacitern Jack is more common, other people are much more likely to see him as the normal Jack, or not to notice any difference.
I lament the time -- ages -- I can spent procrastinating, intimidated by piles of stuff I meant to do. When if I'd at least done some of it, I'd probably have less running late AND had more fun. This week everything has been a breath of air. I've often felt like that starting a new project, and I think every time I am better, but also, it's never before lasted past the next big crisis.
Either way, ask me in a month how the purged, merged, and total master todo list system is: I think I have made a permanent improvement with my burst of organisation over the weekend, even if I can't say whether it'll be a noticeable one or a tiny one.
It feels strange that this Jack is the Jack I think of as me, but since exasperated-and-stressed-and-tacitern Jack is more common, other people are much more likely to see him as the normal Jack, or not to notice any difference.
I lament the time -- ages -- I can spent procrastinating, intimidated by piles of stuff I meant to do. When if I'd at least done some of it, I'd probably have less running late AND had more fun. This week everything has been a breath of air. I've often felt like that starting a new project, and I think every time I am better, but also, it's never before lasted past the next big crisis.
Either way, ask me in a month how the purged, merged, and total master todo list system is: I think I have made a permanent improvement with my burst of organisation over the weekend, even if I can't say whether it'll be a noticeable one or a tiny one.