Not-depression

[jack]

I still keep introspecting about what, if anything, is up with my brain. I recently had a bit of a slump in my current work project, several weeks of knowing what I needed to do and it was fairly simple, but not actually knuckling down to it. And that sort of spilled over to a general malaise. But, as best as I can tell from the inside, that's basically how I used to be *most* of the time. And when I have tasks I actually do achieve, I'm mostly fine, even more-content-than-average, maybe. But I don't know how to describe that -- it doesn't sound like depression as such, if I'm able to snap myself out of it *at all* -- but I feel like perennially feeling dispirited, whether or not it's just who I am, feels like a problem of *some* sort.

I should read over some of my old angst-y posts, I think my overall self-perception has become much, much less gloomy over time, but occasional bouts of introspection appear to be part of that.

Comments

[kaberett]

Yup. Are you familiar with the term "dysthimia"? It might be Relevant To Your (Dis)Interests.

[mtbc]

Interesting, it's a new term to me, and useful.

[kaberett]

Oh good! May it continue so.

[jack]

Ah, thank you! No, I wasn't. That does sound relevant.

Although reading about it, I still get a lot of "are you experiencing lowered X" type questions, where my problem is that I feel like something has ALWAYS been low, but I don't have a baseline to compare it to, so maybe that's just normal.

[kaberett]

Ha, yes, the Delights Of Chronic Depression.

I am entirely willing to believe you have long-term Malaise such that you don't have a useful baseline; certainly that was the case for me & the ~major depressive disorder~.

[jack]

*sympathy* Yes, that.