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On Friday I took the kayak out! Inflated it for the first time in the rain by the Chisholm trail bridge, down a slope into the river.

Paddled down to Baits Bite lock and back, which was just absolutely lovely even in the rain.

Assembling it and deflating it was a bit of an adventure. It folds really well, but you need to get used to it. And it was an effort to get it into the big rucksack, but I managed, so I can cycle with it somewhere further afield if I want.

This was recommended as an entry level kayak, about £120 for a "two small people or one big person" size. Better ones are more streamlined but more expensive. But if this one is a success I can always upgrade if I want to.

I bought a membership in British Canoeing which seems to keep you use a small boat in these bits of the Cam. That's a lot of detail in the Cam Conservators bylaws, I can't summarise all of it but I think I figured out enough with the help of some friends

Pictures on Facebook.
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I cycled to St Ives and swam across the Ouse!

It was actually a useful part of the walk, as I started where the busway crosses the river, then walked through St Ives, and through The Thicket paths. Then there's no bridge yet before Houghton, but I found a place that was easy to get into the water from both sides (almost opposite but not quite).

Changed under big magically thin towel. Everything into dry bag and plunge in. The water was incredibly lovely, I didn't want to get out.

Then walk back through the meadows on the South side of the Ouse, just outside St Ives.

I also stopped at a lovely Terrace restaurant right over the river, and stopped in the Norris museum which was really nice and sold me some small pretty notebooks.
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I thought it was really good!

It captured the TONE of DnD really well. A team of well meaning scoundrels lurched from problem to problem but kicked some ass and cobbled together victories when it really mattered.

It was fun and funny, which I really value. The questioning the dead scene was very fun. The shenanigans exploiting the portal were very fun.

The stakes of getting out of prison, Edgin reuniting with his daughter, rescuing Neverwinter etc felt serious, but approached in a fun way.

It captured the feel of a DnD setting with things like, magic users using specific spells they could use, and warriors beating up a parade of guards, but without trying to reflect the way those are represented by mechanics, eg no unnecessary infodump about spell slots per day.

I appreciated some callbacks to specific things like the Owlbear!

I remember a few other people reviewed it but I can't remember where. Someone talked about the amount of peril eg with the kitten-folk baby rescued from the giant fish. Some people enjoyed it but were less positive then me?
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"Sherlock, but Make Him Likable and Also a not-quite-fallen Angel" I stole that from a review on Tor.

The book does an AMAZING job at showing the relationship between Doyle (based on Watson) and Crow. From Watson's point of view, it is at least as much about him, even though insightful but at right-angles to humanity Crow is the most distinctive character.

It does a great job remixing the original setting to a world where angels (of buildings), werewolf communities, seances, rogue demons in the Afghanistan war etc are a normal part of life. The remixed mysteries are all familiar, but MAKE SENSE with the rules of the world.

It also does a good job of showing different sorts of people (different nationalities, different ethnicities, different genders, different cistransness) who existed in society without replicating Victorian prejudices, but mostly successfully expressed through non-anachronistic viewpoints.

The only other thing I wanted was more of it: not character, more setting. The framing story about Jack the Ripper is a good hook but isn't as interesting as the individual episodes, and I was impatient for More.
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Despite intermediate goals often being a tool to reach a final goal, I was recently noticing a lot of different cases in life when the reverse was true.

Exercise

This is the one that got me thinking. I realised that I used to really often have a problem that if I was running or something, and try to "run fast for a bit", I'd almost immediately run out of motivation to continue, not from immediate discomfort, but from feeling like "I won't be able to keep this up long enough to matter, it's not worth it". When I started exercising regularly, I started with something like Couch to 5k, and really really relied on having a set target for the session, which I did everything I could to meet. I didn't think of that as a "thing", just that exercise was hard to maintain. (And I DID experience positive feelings in my body, unlike some people!)

Since I've been treated for adhd and a bit less stressed out by doing something that feels important that I used to be bad at, I feel like I am more able to say things like "lets see if I can maintain this pace for another 2 minutes" or "lets adjust the target" according to what feels like it will be useful and follow through on them, without falling into reinforcing "I MUST hit my original target, I MUST" or falling into "oh it feels hard, I'll reduce the target"

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1) What are you wearing right now?

Answering for yesterday, black T-shirt with small astronaut carrying a string of planets floating like balloons down the side, which was new yesterday. See: https://img.ltwebstatic.com/images3_pi/2022/06/28/1656392751d37bde3e5d9b53fafacb1a3d20c344c3.webp

I made an effort to branch out from "plain black tshirts" and "black tshirts with slogans on" to find something that would fill the same niche of being convenient and suitable for most of my day to day without a lot of thought, but also look "well put together" in a way I find hard to describe. So T-shirts with more artistic but less sprawling designs were my thought, including some with more "decoration" than "logo".

Also jogging bottoms which are my go-to for sitting around the house.

2) What would you rather be wearing right now?

That was exactly what I wanted!

In general, it would be nice to wear nicer looking clothes without needing too much effort in it. I suppose that's always a trade-off.

3) What is your favorite outfit of clothing that you currently own and wear?

I'm not sure. The black t-shirt with the colourful dice (present from Mx 13) is one that always makes me happy.

I really like wearing a suit occasionally, but haven't actually done for a while, I'm not sure I have one that fits any more.

I really liked the fedora hat. It suited so many different situations. But eventually I lost it, and fedoras got a reputation as beloved of creepy internet guys so I shied away from getting another the same.

4) What is your favorite outfit of clothing that you have ever worn?

The most lovely is my wedding suit. It was an AMAZING garment: blue frock coat, blue brocade waistcoat with black and gold lining. Unfortunately, I was very busy with organising wedding and didn't quite know what I wanted, so although the overall outfit is amazing, it wasn't easy to wear in other situations, and my weight has gone down and up several times since then, so I've not found occasions to wear it as I'd hoped. Possibly I could get it adapted now, since I would still really like to.

5) What was the last new or new-to-you garment you bought or acquired?

That T-shirt, plus several others.

Also some shoelaces I sought something black but with a purple highlight, and found something similar but not quite, so I think I'll end up with black laces on my day to day black shoes, but coloured laces on my trainers. And a couple of "pull tight" toggles of different designs, I want to see if it's more convenient than tying.
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1. You have superpowers! Are you a hero, a villain, or just trying to get by?

Yes :) That is, in my head I always expect myself to be driven by strong principles, and that does show up in many ways -- sticking to principles I've made stubbornly rather than letting them accidentally fall by the wayside, but also sometimes following the rules too strictly and dropping the ball in other ways.

But in practice, often my life ends up characterised by what I actually do when I'm overthinking those things. So maybe "trying to get by"

2. What's your origin story?

What IS my origin story? I guess mostly -- I was born this way. I was born with significant problems -- being too cautious and not driven enough, and sometimes a bit slow to "get" people, and not exactly rich, and with significant difficulty getting things done. But also with significant advantages -- being intelligent, and determined in some ways, and always caring about people, and never in poverty, and lucky enough to channel into a good education and a good job. My life could have gone many many different ways, but I think a lot of it flowed from those things, not a specific turning point.

3. What is your superpower?

Something that is easily quantifiable in some ways, but has profound philosophical implications in other ways.


4. Every superpowered individual has a weakness. What's yours?

Starting things, finishing things, doing boring things, doing important things, phone calls, contradicting people, being seen.

5. What is the most mundane use you've put your powers to? Do you use laser vision to cut your hair, for example?

Again I probably have weirdly specific self-rules to help me manage the question of "is this overusing it", where there's big swathes of time when I just go ahead and use the most effective hammer I have, but some things where it feels like for me it's a slippery slope and I need to always do them the mundane way or I'll get cut off from something important.
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I went open water swimming! It was incredibly nice.

I cycled down to Grantchester meadows again, in swimming trunks and t-shirt I could whip off, and walked along to one of the new slips. I just walked right in, the water is so warm I barely needed any acclimitisation at all, it was so nice in the water I found it hard to leave.

I was bold and tried swimming from that slip up to the top of the meadows where Grantchester starts, and walked back, and it went sufficiently well that I then swam down to the *other* slip and walked back from that as well.

I wasn't sure about swimming along: most of the way it wouldn't be easy to get out, so even though it wasn't far, I was committed. And the bottom of the river is inconsistent: some places it's easy to stand up, some places it's deep mud, some places it's deep, and some places it's rather overgrown with ominously grasping plants with big leaves. But I knew that I could swim a fair distance in a managed pool, and in fact it was totally fine. Even a couple of field lengths felt a long way when you didn't quite know what to expect, but it was really satisfying.

It was about 500m between the two swims, which was short compared to what I normally do, but doing it all continuously was harder work too.

It turns out, when you're swimming outside, that breaks the magical barrier of talking to strangers, and also makes you look like like a really interesting person! A few people spoke to me, including four who'd brought a little table, table cloth, and little teaparty.

And I got talking to two: One, an engine driver who was out with his canoe (not on strike, on holiday), who attracted a set of ducks onto his canoe. One a retail worker from Duxford who'd come to swim and sunbathe in Grantchester for the day and helped me re-sunscreen after swimming.

I felt incredibly refreshed for a couple of hours not needing to do a lot of things.

I remembered the temporary ban on swimming, and I'm really glad there seems to have been some sort of compromise which makes it actually easier.

And I also keep meaning to tempt other people to come swim with me, but it's almost always something I do at short notice so it's hard to arrange.
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Birthday garden party coming up this afternoon (details: https://jack.dreamwidth.org/1141846.html)

Now I'm more excited rather than nervous.

Ask if there's any details you need.

Please take an LFT beforehand if it's easy for you to do so.
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https://thefridayfive.dreamwidth.org/110472.html

1. What kind of bugs do you see outside this time of year?

I really don't pay enough attention to recognise what comes out when. But I have enjoyed seeing more butterflies around generally, either because of more meadows nearby, or me paying more attention, or a recovery in populations. It's lovely to see them flitting around the garden. And others too, but I can't remember what.

2. What's your favorite food to eat outside?

Anything, in a way -- I quite like eating at an outside table even when conditions are perfect.

But specific outside food, I guess that mostly means picnic food: nice, fresh, sandwiches, nice crisps, veg, maybe dips, cold refreshing drinks. Especially after a trek. Or BBQ. Or spontaneous ice-cream.

3. How much rain is too much rain?

A light rain, I'll happily just accept, since I started carrying a baseball cap, and not wearing clothes pristine enough for it to make a difference. A torrential (for england) downpour is nice if you can watch from safety. It's not as much, how heavy, as when it goes on for too long

4. What are you celebrating this month?

My belated birthday celebration. Maybe making progress on healthcare admin. Getting some plans into place at work. Regular outside swimming. Improved productivity techniques. I need to do some more FUN things though.
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My off-by-6-month birthday is coming up (Celebration 18th June, see: https://jack.dreamwidth.org/1141846.html) and now I'm really nervous, it's been so long since I hosted anything. It actually will all be fine, it can be almost entirely in the garden so most people can come, and I just need to find drinks and snacks which isn't hard. But, fingers crossed, will be lovely to see people.

Swimming

Jun. 2nd, 2022 06:20 pm
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Swimming outside at Jesus Green Lido was so lovely.

My very-old-now prescription goggles are doing great service, and swimming underwater still feels magical, seeing the sparkling dapples of sunlight rippling across the top and bottom of the water, and any leaves hanging stationary suspended in infinity.

I swam 16 lengths (nearly 1mi), and pushed myself to actually go faster enough that my heart was racing and I felt tired out, even if it wasn't very fast in actual speed. That was mostly breaststroke but I also practiced crawl, and managed about half a length before running out of puff.

And just sitting in the sun is glorious.

The water temperature was 17c, and it was noticeably colder for longer after I got in than 18c, but I had got better at getting in without cursing, and by half way through the first length it felt lovely. And feeling the sun on my skin felt lovely.
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It is my 40.5th birthday, and to celebrate there will be a garden party at our house in the afternoon of Saturday 18th of June! From 2pm until 6pm, and possibly later if we want to continue.

Dressing up (in costume, in suit-equivalents or black tie, colourfully, or whatever else feels interesting) is encouraged.

There will be a assorted drinks, including cocktails, and nibbles, and if we stay later past dinner time we will source food of some sort.

If we are online friends, you are very welcome even if we don't know each other well, as are partners and children and pets. Please let me know if you ARE likely to come, even if you're not sure.

We will be outside, but you are welcome to come inside briefly for necessities. Please take an LFT beforehand if it's easy for you to do so.

Address in contact details: https://jack.dreamwidth.org/686373.html (Message if you can't see)
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Trying to expand my cycling as a source of serious exercise while I avoid running and maybe even long walks until I'm confident my knees are ok, yesterday I aimed for a 40 miles cycle, the longest ever for me.

I made a loop up to Huntingdon parallel to the A14, then back through St Ives and the busway.

I start off along King's Hedges Road, then along the heavily fenced cycle path between Histon Rd and Huntingdon Rd. Then dodge up to Girton, and slip out the bottom end onto the cycle path which runs parallel to the A14 all the way to Fenstanton. That path is the opposite of some -- well paved, lots of space, but not especially nice scenery. But because it's easy to just GO, it's quite a nice way to start. And I like seeing the random bits of untended scrubland around.

That passes Bar Hill and Cambridge Services if you need a stop, although I didn't.

Through Fenstanton, then onto a passable A-road (or narrow on-pavement path if you prefer) round to Hemingford Grey. Now we reach villages just off the Ouse, oozing picturesque. I stopped on a bench here for lunch. Then along to Hemingford Abbots which is equally picturesque but with much bigger houses.

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The Thicket: 13/10, perfect place.
St Ives: 9/10, nice place, easy to cycle, only occasional cars
Busway: 10/10, easy cycling, familiar, passes through nice places, WCs conveniently at Northstowe

Retrospective:

It was a nice day. I'd previously done 30+ miles and felt like I could do more if I just stayed out a little bit longer so I was fairly sure 40 miles would be ok, but I also felt like Huntingdon was a long way away and perhaps I was kidding myself. But it was about right: enough to push me a bit, but not enough to end up with a long painful slog home in the dusk. Hopefully I will keep it up.

I'm used enough to following the routes I didn't have much worry whether I'd find my way through. National Cycle Route 51 which I've followed E of Cambridge also comes this way, up the busway, and then at St Ives cutting across a bridge to join the route I took through Hemingfords and the signs were often helpful.

I feel achy today but in a mostly good way, my knees aren't sure but don't seem to have got worse.

I stopped at a lot of nice places for a bit of a read, if anything I want to make sure to keep that up, maybe even fit in more of it. I found a lot of nice places on the way.

I'm still not going very actually fast, but faster than I used to. I guess I hadn't dived into proper cycling gear, and I still have panniers for lunch and jumper etc, so I'm not as efficient as I could be, although at least my new bike is better for this than my old bike.
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This month wins:
  • Hourly brain self check-ins on many days
  • WD-40 to bike chain
  • Bought bike lube
  • Bought running top, shorts
  • Sorted piles of post
  • Parkrun time 37:33min (down below 40min)
  • Started new meds
  • Petted alpacas
  • Work appraisal
  • Set up weights on patio
  • Reprogrammed thermostate for summertime
  • Bought little animal clips to identify people's cups/glasses
  • Sorted bathroom stockpile and cabinet
  • Cleaned half of the kitchen and living room
  • Bought filing trays
  • Cleared nettles on drive
  • Went to Oxford and saw the shark
  • Lost pandemic legacy
  • Finished work project
When I put it like that, it sounds like I was pretty productive! But it's hard to persuade my brain until (maybe) enough areas of my life start feeling like they're under control that it starts to slowly get my brain used to the idea that I might be adulting ok even if I haven't done something incredibly useful in the last few minutes :)
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The internet says that they made low beam bike lights sometimes (maybe from germany). Any experience having a bike light which is bright enough to cycle on completely unlit roads/paths without having to slow down a lot, without dazzling oncomers? Is any decent bike light likely to do it or do I need to look for something specific?

I've slowly expanded my comfort zone cycling, but it would open more options if I could reliably cycle on dark ways. I used to have a decent light but it was a bit of a trade-off between "being able to see far enough" and "not dazzling people", and now I have a cheap light that's suffices for urban cycling but doesn't light things up much.

I might have asked this before, I can't remember.
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We actually READ the book of Judith for Hannukah. I will attempt to summarise.

Nebuchadnezzar is the autocratic emperor of Assyria and (realistically) rules a vast swathe of territory and (unrealistically) thinks that he is almost a god. This isn't THE Nebuchadnezzar, not any of the other Nebuchadnezzars either. Stories of the time apparently just slap the Nebuchadnezzar label on rulers who are going to be bad news, reflecting that the people who wrote the stories which we're reading were first, people in Jerusalem conquered by Babylonian Nebuchadnezzar and deported back to Babylon, then their descendants who later returned to Israel. Fictional Nebuchadnezzar has a massive beef with Some Ruler who doesn't really come into the story after the first chapter.

There is detail about Some Ruler's fortified cities (wall width, size of stones, gate size, number of towers), which having recently read https://acoup.blog/2021/10/29/collections-fortification-part-i-the-besiegers-playbook/ was pretty interesting from a historical-strategic perspective. A wall like that shuts off raids from any any army less professional and determined that what the emperor of Assyria can muster.

Narrator: This is what a walled city protects against, and this is what it doesn't.

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This all alludes to the more genuinely historical invasion by the Greek Seleucids repelled by the Maccabees, so it is celebrated in Hannukah, along with the later tradition that one of the things Judith specifically plied Holofernes with was good cheese.
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1. Do you have a yearly, or monthly, clothing budget? Do you stick to it?

No, I'm fortunate to have enough slack that I don't need a strict limit. Or unfortunate, that as with many other things, perhaps I need a budget TO get me to spend ENOUGH. I'll always have clean, un-holed clothes. And have slowly developed a few I actually like, like smart but interesting socks, and fresh, well fitting T-shirts and jeans.

But I have very few clothes I especially like, and it would be nice for me to have SOME.

I have been trying to piece together how to buy better looking clothes, without just buying more expensive clothes that fit equally mediocrely. I think basically I need to have clothes that fit well. And maybe replace them when they're fraying a bit, before they're fraying a lot.

I guess my weight changing hasn't helped.

2. Do you buy trendy clothes, or classic pieces that can be worn for years?

I have no idea HOW to buy fashionable clothes. I could barely RECOGNISE fashionable clothes. But I'm not sure my clothes would be described as "fashionable". Or as "pieces". No, that's not quite fair. As someone else said, I do have a "recognisable aesthetic" as it were.

3. Is there a current fashion trend that you hate?

Whatever I personally notice is usually eclipsed when I see a friend trying to buy women's clothes and discover there's some new fundamental part of clothing which they've decided to spent a few years selling clothing without. "Hey, here's trousers, without the end of the legs." "Hey, want a jumper that doesn't keep you warm?" "We've changed our sizes again. Now sizes below this threshold are all labelled as '2' and sizes above this threshold are all labelled as 'XXXXXXXXXXXXXL'. Good luck."

I often am a little grumpy at something silly, but I can't remember any right now

4. Have you had clothing altered to fit you better?

Apparently this is easy and useful (and cheap by the standards of buying clothes), so that would be very good, but I haven't actually managed it before.

5. Is there a piece of clothing, or accessory, that you covet?

There's not a thing. But I do wish I could look, I don't know, well dressed. Like some people seem to manage, or man people manage in the photos photography friends post.
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Half way down the stairs is the box where I fit
There isn't any other box QUITE like it
If I'm not in box A, and I'm not in box B
Then when will I find just right the box for me?
The box that I fit
It isn't quite normal
It isn't quite weird
It isn't quite straight
And it isn't quite queered
But all sorts of funny thoughts run around in my head
And I don't fit in your box, I fit in my box instead


I wrote a poem! Adapted from A. A. Milne's "Halfway down the stairs is the stair where I sit"

It came out in a burst, trying to capture the feeling of finding the box where YOU fit, and not feeling like you just don't fit anywhere anymore. In this case, for potentially getting a diagnosis of ADHD (or autism).
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I reread Gideon the Ninth and half way through Harrow the Ninth. I posted a lot of recap and musings on Facebook:

https://facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10104135617416710&id=36912084

Should be public to everyone, but you can always comment here if you don't use Facebook