jack

I don't want to count my chickens, but for the longest time, I've had the problem that when I have a day with no commitments, I feel like I have to take advantage of it and do all the things, and typically become overwhelmed by choice and expectation and end up doing not much.

Now, for almost the first time, I find that problem receding. I've no particular plans today, but I'm fairly confident, I'm going to spend a couple of hours hammering out miscellaneous todos, do some reading or watching tv, go for a walk outside, and maybe see Liv and Osos depending how busy we all are, and that's about all. Maybe I'll only do some of that, but that will still be good. But I don't fear I'll do *none* of that.

And that freedom makes it so much easier to do things -- to go for a walk or get into a project knowing that's time well spent, not time I intended to be doing something else.

I don't know if it will last, but despite a lot of angst about getting things done, I think having *some* month-by-month goals has been successful at making me feel *less* pressured.

I recently realised something which many people had told me before, but I hadn't had the prerequisites in place to grok.

If I have a list of tasks to do today, and a rough breakdown of how long I expect them to take, and one is overrunning, it may make sense to take a break from *that* one and do all the others. And then start afresh on the longer one tomorrow. (At least, except when that one is SO urgent you just need to work on it alone until it's done.)

Partly because, even if your main work is overdue, there's always small other stuff (answering emails, dealing with admin, dealing with requests from other people) that it's good if it still gets done. And better that it gets SOME attention, even if that's just "I got your email but don't have time to reply in detail" rather than none.

And partly because, if something runs late, it often then runs MORE late, so (a) it will probably still be late even if you do drop everything else and (b) if you don't it will usually eat up ALL of the time.

And partly because, 10% of the tasks often take 90% of the time, and sometimes that's the most important task and sometimes it isn't, so if you advance on *all* tasks, you may find you've done all the most important ones and may never do the overrunning one at all.

I think that never really worked for me before, because tasks were ALWAYS overrunning, not because they took too long, but because I was scared of starting them. And the only way of starting them was forcing myself to, if I did other stuff, I would never start at all. (Which is ok if that task can be dropped, but not if it's the main thing I should be doing.) So my main task always overran, and the other stuff never got done till it got urgent. Now I've got better at not doing that :)

OTOH, the system also breaks down when you have too much stuff coming in to do all of it, and you don't have time for even the most basic of reaction to stuff people are thrusting onto your plate. At that point, you need to adopt a "don't have time for this" and "see if this goes away by itself before responding" attitude (or get an assistant).

I started HabitRPG from where I left off, junking all the nice but overcomplicated tasks and dailies which I think I'd over-done, and starting over with a list of six+ habits, no dailies, all geared to be things I feel good about doing, but often don't get round to.

Currently:

Todo item (anything on today's todo list, usually quite green or blue)
Admin (Updating todo lists, etc. May combine this with above)
Exercise (Any of my official "jog 2+ times a week", but also any extras)
Hobby (Any of my own projects, not just "anything for fun", but things I need to make time for if I want to do them, like ongoing classes, or programming projects, fiction or game design)
Ongoing Social (Anything that doesn't happen automatically every week, like making plans to see mum or non-cambridge friends)
Self-care/ablutions (Shower, shave, brush teeth, etc. Also remembering to eat when I'm hungry if applicable etc)
Housework (Anything it's useful to do a little bit of every day)
Long-term (Any long-term TODOs)
Medium-term (Anything on my TODO list that doesn't absolutely have to be done today... I'm especially trying to change from doing none of these until they're urgent, to doing some of these...)

What I have always found difficult is that some of these are naturally green, but others are naturally yellow or red, because even an ideal rate of doing them will be slow by comparison. I can't remember if that's adjustable with task difficulty or something? But I'm slowly getting used to the idea that it works ok like that. If I do my day-to-day tasks until they're mostly green, I can leave them and that's usually ok, and work on the longer-term ones. After all, I want to do all of them "sometimes", if I do two long-term tasks in a row, that's probably better, I don't need to be prioritising medium tasks over them especially.

Sorry, the previous post may have been too bleak. I think in general I actually establishing a much better baseline where "happy" and "organised" and "productive" are the norm, and "I know I'm good, I don't understand why things keep going wrong" isn't.

That's a point I kept hoping I'd get to, and only now am I cautiously wondering if maybe I actually have!

But that progress involves a lot of examining problems and cleaning them out not letting them fester, but that brings them to light in a way they didn't when they just mouldered quietly.

Things which have been a lot better:

* Eating breakfast every day, eating soup and toast for lunch every day instead of sandwich which leaves me feeling a lot bouncier
* Kept a multipack of crisps in my desk drawer for when I DO want to eat them with a sandwich, and didn't snack on them at any other times
* Getting in to work not-at-the-last-minute, semi-regularly
* Much more ready to talk to people and less scared
* Still SOMETIMES scared, but much more able to recognise "oh, I'm in a bad mood it will pass" rather than "agh, I'm so useless, must dwell on how useless I am"
* Not feeling I must reply to every LJ comment and read every link before doing something else
* Reasonable expectation of turning up to work and getting things done, not freezing :)

Things I still want to improve on:

* Not trying to do too much in the evening, and getting to sleep in good time
* Make regular time for other hobbies, specifically home programming projects
* Make measurably steady progress on little tasks without letting them mount up

I've tried so many different productivity techniques, and eventually I noticed I had different but related problems susceptible to different solutions. Particularly annoying is something I didn't notice was a pattern because it used to happen very rarely, when I'd have a vista of uninterrupted time ahead of me, no overdue or crisis tasks to firefight, an opportunity to get ahead -- I'd freeze up. As much or more as when I was panicked.

It's really annoying because it would take a lot of effort to get to that state, and then I'd reliably squander it. In fact, it only now occurs to me that maybe many people did "good enough" by never getting to that state -- by being good at living in crisis-mode, they could actually be really good at their life and career by handling things when they were not quite too late, and never waste time on things on-one was screaming about (which is often good) at the cost of never doing really important things that aren't urgent right now. But it never occurred to me to do that, I assumed I had to have a system of "get organised, then do things, then enjoy life"... :)

But now I'm getting better at it. Several techniques help: just as with when I'm distracted and demotivated, turning off the internet and setting goals in half-hour chunks gets me to make progress without panicking about "what about the rest of the week". Having flexible goals with lots of stretch goals stops me giving up at the first delay. Having goals per-day gives me an incentive to crack on and get things over with, not just feel like I have to slave away for lots of hours.

This week, I'm a little busy, but everything seems under control, things look optimistic, my manager is on holiday for a week, I have small talking-to-people challenges that I should be able to handle, and a couple of interesting projects to do if I have time... prime candidates for procrastination. Can I work well anyway? Wish me luck!

OK, hopefully signing off internet for a couple of hours, see you shortly :)

http://www.quora.com/Procrastination/How-do-I-get-over-my-bad-habit-of-procrastinating/answer/Oliver-Emberton

For a while, my favourite cartoon article on procrastination was this quora answer by Oliver Emberton, describing the einstein-rational part of your brain and the impulsive-lizard part of your brain.

http://waitbutwhy.com/2013/10/why-procrastinators-procrastinate.html

But it was displaced by the wait-but-why article and sequel.

All the wait-but-why articles were funny, but seemed to be trying to be a bit too clever, so I had to come back to them to decide if I liked them or not. I wasn't sure how much this article added over what I already knew. But when I came back to it, I decided it was actually really good.

I think the most valuable thing is having a name for the "dark playground" -- the metaphorical place where you know you need to get something important done, but put it off, but you can't do anything *really* fun while you wait, because you'd feel guilty and because you can't really concentrate, so you do lots of things that used to be a bit fun, but now are just a mess of bad habits and impulsive reward-seeking like checking email again and again and reading websites you don't really like.

I was always aware of that phenomenon, but I didn't realise how fuzzy my concept was until having a name for it brought it into sharp focus. Having a name for it meant firstly that it was immediately easy to describe to anyone else familiar with procrastination -- even if they knew I was wrong, they knew what I was experiencing and what might help a little and what wasn't. And that I could tell other people and myself that I wasn't really enjoying what I was doing -- the problem was literally "putting things off", not "wanting to do something else more".

And secondly, recognising easily that was what I was doing helped me eliminate the lies I told myself. No, I'm not going to check my email "one more time", each time I do that I get more exhausted and get less willpower. Instead, I have to choose between (a) reducing the fear of starting to the point where I can do SOMETHING right now or (b) taking a real break or (c) checking my email HARDER and HARDER until I suddenly snap in panic and force myself to work as hard as I can for about three seconds before I collapse (this doesn't help).

I started using beeminder.com about a year ago. It's been immensely useful. I don't think beeminder is the only thing that could have done that, but I think it came along at just the right point in my life to be incredibly useful. (Thank you DReeve and team!)

I've used it to track over half a dozen different graphs of my life.

Long term ones include:

* Doing gym (or other equivalent workout). Now averaging three times a week.
* Half-hour units spent actually concentrating on work, not just faffing around trying to get started. This started off noticeably less than "hours in the working day", but admitting that made it a lot easier to slowly increase it to the point where I felt I did a good day's work every day.
* Weight. I explicitly didn't set a goal for this, but it's moved to a level I prefer.
* Long-term items crossed off todo list. This number is fairly meaningless, but simply recording it a lot easier to do things and not feel there's no point as there's an infinite number more.
* Daily perishable todo lists (eg. do washing up). As above.
* Blog three times a week.

What I find incredibly useful:

* Having a graph that shows progress.
* Getting reminder emails if something falls off my radar and I don't do it for a few weeks.
* An external measure that I've done "enough" for the moment, that I don't need to wait until I have time to do ALL OF IT.

What I'd actually like to be able to opt out of:

The premise of beeminder is anti-procrastination, that you can commit in advance to keep some particular goal, and in order to force your future self to stick to it, you pledge an amount of money. This works very well for many people.

However, I wasn't sure if I wanted to do it at the beginning, and I found that simply having a goal at all was more than enough pressure. Sometimes I need to resort to panic to make progress, but the more often I can be motivated by hope instead of fear the better I work. Having a giant red klaxon saying "you've failed" seems to demotivate me more than motivate me.

The few occasions I've failed a goal, or nearly failed a goal, it's clearly been because I set up the conditions wrongly in advance. Either it's because I chose bad conditions to begin with, or because something genuinely more important but non-catastrophic came up, or because I mismanaged the grace period when I was on holiday, etc. Not something where I wish I'd had the fortitude to do it anyway! (If it's genuinely a screw-up, even if it's your fault, Beeminder are very good about resetting the failure.) If I'd pledged, I'd have paid, because I think I failed by the terms I initially set and I don't want to encourage myself to quibble. But I didn't fail by the terms I should have set.

So, basically, I want beeminder (with graphs and emails) but without the anti-procrastination checks (and maybe a monthly fee). Beeminder do offer a monthly fee for infinite pledgeless goals, but they sort of say they think it's a bad idea and don't encourage it.

I'm not sure. Should I (a) go with that or (b) look for another website that does something similar? I could just use a spreadsheet now I have the habit of doing it every day anyway. But I'm still scared that changing the routine would break the habit.

The other thing I wish was easier is that that EVERY datum I enter is for today, and the vast majority of them are "1", and most have one of the three most common comments. I wish I had a shortcut for "goal gym, today, 1, swim 20" with one click, not four clicks. I think I should be able to do that with beeminder with the API or the email bot, but I haven't yet had the time to figure out how.

Recently, I got RAC to replace the battery in my car. It was still under warranty, so it was really easy. Until the last moment, here dramatised for your entertainment.

RAC: You don't even have to pay anything.
RAC: Just one minor administrative thing.
Jack's pessimism: Uh-oh.
RAC: Have you got the receipt and guarantee from the battery?
Jack's pessimism: AAAAAAAGH!
Jack: Let me just go and check.
Jack's pessimism: Aaaah! Where on Earth would I have put that to be safe?
Jack's optimism: Have you checked the filing cabinet under "RAC"?
Jack: Oh yeah. Here it is.

I've been filing stuff long enough that important documents are usually in the right place in the filing cabinet, rather than put in a drawer somewhere with five other less-permanently "important" documents from about the same time.

But it's taking years before my instinctive response to needing something is becoming "of course" not "aaaaah!"

I've expanded by beeminder goals to half a dozen. It's different for everyone, but for me the most useful productivity device seems to be something that:

* Lets me record how often I succeed
* Lets me set up something to poke me if I get busy and stop submitting updates (and a small, but not ambitious goal to say "do at least this much")
* NOT bug me every day (except for things I SHOULD do every day), I'd rather be able to focus on gym for a month, and then fall back to a low baseline of a couple of times a week while I'm busy with something else.
* NOT focus on faux-psychoanalysis. Encouragement can be useful but it can also feel dispiriting or patronising, I'm very happy to just get a row of green ticks :)

That's not exactly how beeminder is designed to be used, but it's what I've found most useful so far.

My goals:

Todo

This only counts _new_ things. Not stuff that has to happen every week anyway, but stuff that represents genuine progress in my life, even if small. My target rate is set to 3 per week, and I'm doing about that.

It feels silly that I can't easily do more than that -- surely I have time. But some of the things I need to do are big and scary. And just remembering to do laundry, turn up at work, go to the pub with friends, etc, eats most of my time...

I've tended to have a spurt when there's a lot of small-to-medium things I polish off in a burst, and then a few weeks when immediate concerns overtake the graph. But it doesn't really matter what the graph shows, it matters that I have a way of feeling good about my progress.

Day

I started this last week, based on a suggestion from a blog, but it seems to be going well. It records items on todo list(s) for a day that I've completed.

The catch is, the list can be as small as I like, but I have to do everything on it for it to count.

The reasoning behind that is that it's easy for a todo list to spiral out of control with the things I need to todo today getting mixed in with the things I've wanted to do for ages and only now have time for mixed in with stuff I vaguely thought I might do this week. And if I do that, then the whole evening is spent stressing over prioritising. Whereas if I force myself to be ruthless and make a list of things I'm ACTUALLY going to do, and a separate list for anything else, that's fairly easy to do. And thereafter I can relax and do them in whichever order I fancy, because doing a bit of washing up, etc, doesn't mean I'm neglecting the bigger things.

And when I do the prioritising in advance, it's easier to say "ok, one biggish thing, a few emails I've been putting off, and a bit of washing up/cleaning etc", and then I get some of all of it done, whereas if I try to prioritise as I go along, the de facto todo list becomes "agh, I don't know, I'll try to do all of it, but settle for the biggest one" and then never do the washing up.

Gym

I've been going to the gym for five months -- where has this year gone? Gym membership was supposed to be last year's thing. But I'm really glad I've kept it up, I feel a lot better for it.

Since I started, I've managed an average of 2.5 times a week. That came close to failing a few times over Christmas when I was away, but has been safe since. And the last five weeks I've maintained an average of four times a week.

Weight

I feel like a traitor for measuring this because so many people are damaged by the idea that only skinny is any good :( But I would in fact like to weigh less than I do now, even my ideal weight would be more than average for my height. And since I was losing a bit of weight from going to the gym anyway, I decided I might as well measure it. I've lost weight very slowly, but incontrovertibly more than zero. Measuring it has turned it from a complicated doom-filled hole into just one more thing that is under the control of my awesome organisation.

Blog

Part of the idea is that I don't only track things that seem boring but necessary, but also things that seem fun but I don't get round to because I'm worried about other things :)

Hence, a reminder to blog. I still need to shift away from the idea that _every_ post needs to be a complicated essay, and have more "hey, this is what I did today" (when that's potentially somewhat interesting to people other than me).

Fiction

When I started, I speculated what else I might want to track, and one was writing fic, something I like to do very occasionally but never have time to do. But alas, this one is still on zero :)

StickK: shave face and shave head

I also experimented with non-beeminder tools for tracking things I want to do every week. (Shaving twice in one day doesn't make me less grizzled if I don't shave the next day :)) Success has been mixed, but it's been successful in training me to just do both automatically rather than putting them off.

You can see graphs of all the beeminder goals at: https://www.beeminder.com/jackv

When I was putting things in drawers and cupboards, in the new house, I realised that one reason my house had always been cluttered was that I didn't have a good system dealing with papers and other things, or for where to store stuff I regularly used.

That meant, if there was anything I used regularly (eg. keys, wallet, etc) or needed to reply to (eg. bills, other post), I couldn't put it in a drawer because if I did, it would get muddled up with all the rest of piles of clutter and get lost and never used.

That meant it always had to stay out, on the table or the sideboard, and then stayed there forever.

Now, I designated a drawer for "stuff I use every day" and "newly arrived post", on the understanding that if I stayed fairly up to date, it didn't matter if it was out of sight, it would get dealt with, and not need to stay haunting my forebrain with its presence in order to do so. Thus, my living room is (for the first time basically ever) reasonably tidy -- nothing is on flat surfaces, except things that are supposed to be (birthday cards, coasters, etc).